IBM Easter camp

So, we were back to the Yungas last weekend for our first camp as a church- for Easter! There was a ton of planning that went into this and a lot of praying that it would be a success. I suppose there are different ways to judge success when thinking of camp. For me, it meant that Natty slept most of the way there and back, that she slept well at camp, that the food cubes I had made to feed her didn't spoil and that she ate well, that she enjoyed the company of 100 different people grabbing, petting, cooing, touching, and holding her off and on throughout the weekend, that the kids program being held in our cabin didn't interrupt the naps, that I had someone to talk to while sitting inside the cabin waiting for her to finish her nap...I'm sure you get the picture. So, for me, it was a great success! The weather was beautiful, I had nice conversations with people who were in and out of the mission's cabin where we were bunked, and Natty was a dream. For other people, especially leadership, we found that there was a lot we would do differently next time. The turnout was amazing and had me continually in awe at how good God was to bring so many people to our church camp. Lots of people invited friends and family, many of whom are not believers. However, there were enough unexpected visitors to warrant smaller portions of food and even one run into town to buy more chickens. We also need to work on delegating more responsibilities, as there were 2 families who did the brunt of the work and really burned themselves out. I'm not taking credit for this, as we were not included in those running themselves into the ground, but for their sake, something needs to change there too. But, overall- the games were tons of fun, people seemed to be getting to know each other better, the messages were great, and I would rate the camp a success. A petty thought came to mind on Easter- outweighed by gratitude for the life I've been given through the death and victory over death by Christ- but it was there nonetheless: Natty celebrated her first Easter without a dress! Or a basket or any of those other things I grew up with. Now, living in Bolivia and potentially participating in camp every Easter in a remote jungly area that is a bit rough, I'm guessing a pretty new dress won't be part of the picture for our daughter. So, that got me thinking about what I would like to see as tradition in our family. I love traditions and I remember looking forward to specific ones when I was little. I want our traditions to first, point the way to Christ, and also be lots of fun. Scotty and I have some thinking to do- what are some of the traditions you guys enjoy at Easter?

Our Natalie

I have to take a moment to brag on our baby. Everyone probably thinks their baby is the best, but I'm pretty sure our little girl is (or as one friend would say, best "on this side of the world"). She has reached this super fun stage where she chats happily in her crib in the early morning when I'm too tired to go in and get her, she smiles for strangers (which was definitely not the case a few weeks ago), she goes to sleep without any coaxing- naps and nighttime, she rarely cries, she loves to play by herself with toys, she's never afraid of dogs- no matter how big or loud they are and she gets a huge smile on her face when she sees me or her daddy. She really is such a joy to be around and is learning new tricks everyday. For example, I heard her whining in her crib just a few minutes ago, which is a bit unusual for her. I went in to check on her and she was lying on her tummy! This might not seem too exciting, but I've been trying to get her to roll from back to tummy for the longest time! Anyway, I could go on and on about our daughter. So, I will just sum it all up by saying she is a precious gift from the Lord and I am awed that He gave us the great responsibility of making her a disciple of Christ and getting to cuddle with her too!

The happy box

Last night we dropped Natalie off downstairs with explicit instructions on what to do and what not to do with her. As soon as we walked in, our landlord, Edgar, says, "I'll put her to bed." I wasn't into that. The point of waiting until 7 to go out to dinner was so that we do Natty's bedtine routine and hope that this would distract and calm her in new, scary surroundings. Then he told us not to worry, if she wakes up, they'll play. No again, I'm afraid. We explained that from this time on, she sleeps- no playing. He seemed a bit disappointed, but we left feeling like we had done our best to explain what she is used to and how to treat her if she were to wake up. And off we went on our first date since Valentine's Day- Scotty's birthday dinner. He had chosen one of his most favorite restaurants, Mi Tierra. It's Brazilian style, which means an endless supply of meat. And we're not talking chicken (unless you count the hearts), this is beef, pork, lamb. They bring around different cuts on skewers and you can accept or decline (I find declining hard cause they sometimes seem to take it personally). And then there's a large salad bar with veggies and various fried things that go well with red meat, and a dessert bar. You can see where this is going. Overindulging and very full bellies at the end. But, we had such a nice time catching up after a busy week and celebrating the life of a wonderful man. And then, the grand finale- the happy box. Scotty had to run out of the restaurant when we first got there and I informed a waiter it was my husband's birthday tomorrow. He said they play the "Happy Birthday" music and do a "happy box", whatever that is. I said that sounds great and he said they'd be happy to do that tomorrow for my husband. I was a bit confused at first and then explained that the man I was there with was my husband and I was hoping they could do it tonight...he readily agreed. So, as we sat down with our plates of rice pudding and crepes, the wonderful latin version of "Happy Birthday" came over the speakers and out came the waiters with a plate that had a little box made out of flat, square pieces of chocolate, filled with whipped cream and "Felicidades Scotty" nicely written in strawberry gel- a happy box! When we got back home, we found Natty asleep, after having been taken out, walked around and put back to bed in a lit room on a bed, watching soccer....mmmmm, I won't bother typing how I felt about that. But, I was thankful for neighbors we can trust and a good relationship with them.

After a busy morning, Scotty and I headed back into town for a small office party in his honor. One of our favorite traditions here is how everyone takes their turn during a birthday party to share what they love, admire, and appreciate in the birthday person. It was neat to hear Scotty's office co-workers and friends all agree that one thing they see consistently in him is a passion for Christ and the Word. I've thanked God many times for a husband that can explain Biblical ideas to me and to other people as well as a man who has a gift of faith and loves to grow in his love and understanding of the Lord. Scotty is a patient, fun, loving, affectionate, compassionate, generous, intellegent, friendly husband, father and friend- how grateful I am for the privilege of being his wife.

All-American morning

Scotty and Natty reading her Spanish Bible.

We found out recently that every Saturday morning at the American School, there is an English speaking group that comes out to play frisbee. The American school has a gorgeous campus, nicer than any I've seen in the states and is the educational institution of choice for embassy families and upper class Bolivians. Scotty goes every Tuesday night to play basketball in their top notch gym. If we get ourselves organized enough, we can get the other things done we need to before or after and enjoy a couple hours of playing frisbee with other foreigners. This morning, I set Natty up on a blanket in the grass, by herself, surrounded by toys, and far away from the action. She probably sat alone for close to an hour total without complaining once. She even fell over a couple of times and didn't seem to mind. That gave me time to play or chat with friends.

Mommy and Natty on the swings while Daddy plays Frisbee.

Unfortunately, I didn't get a shot of the action, but there had to be at least 20 of us this morning- it was great and Scotty was in his element. After frisbee, I had a hankerin' for a burger and fries. There is no where you can go for a decent hamburger and fries that is quick (so Natty could go home and nap), except Burger King. Now, I used to go off and on to Burger King in Cochabamba because the youth I worked with always wanted to go. Scotty, however, has managed to live in Bolivia for close to 5 years and has never eaten there. He has nothing against the establishment, just kinda had the bragging rights to say he'd never been there. We gave in today, also realizing that once kids come into the picture, there will be all kinds of fast foody type places we will probably go because they have playgrounds. So, it was fast and it was good. And, it was the first burger and fries I can remember having in half a year. So, for a few minutes, sitting in our kitchen with a brown BK bag in front of us, we felt a little like we were in the US. Now, we're getting ready for an all-Bolivian night. Bible study at 4 and church set-up after. It's nice to have the chance to do a bit of both.

Have it your way (is that the right slogan?).

Scotty & Lisa's March Update from Bolivia

It's our privilege to share with you what we continue to be involved in here, as well as invite you to look forward to some future events with us! As always, we'd love to hear back from you!

Carnaval Barbeque

February is the month of Carnaval- the time of age-old customs that began before the Spanish conquest and center around giving thanks to the Pachamama (earth-goddess) and warding off evil spirits by throwing water. Beliefs vary widely these days, but water-play is still a must and young people will drag it out as long as possible- lining the streets to throw water balloons at each other for the whole month, and closing down everything for the state holidays to splash, soak, foam, and generally have a raucous time. Not wanting to miss the chance to spend free days with our small group, we planned a barbeque for Saturday and were thankful to see the sun shining as we got ready for a fun afternoon. Everyone from the group came, plus the Hursts, pastor Edgar and his younger son, as well as a few extended family members. We grilled, we ate, we chatted, we played with water, we tried to convince Natty she could, indeed, sleep in an unknown place, we chatted some more, we soaked up sun, we relaxed. Although we had to go home early to get Natty to bed, we heard that most stuck around until late, enjoying each other and getting each other pumped up to attend the IBM first annual retreat in April. When the leadership team had asked key members of the congregation about their commitment to attending the retreat, the answers were doubtful at best. But God must have worked in the hearts of many, because we are now expecting a good number! Our hope is to present the vision for this year as a church body, as well as encourage and enable people to become more involved in church service. We'll head down to the camp in the mountainous jungle region called the Yungas to celebrate Easter together for this retreat.

A Home of our Own

Picture with us a modest, inviting home on a hill overlooking our side of Mallasilla and the mountains surrounding this community. A big, green lawn is full of fruit trees and kids playing soccer in the sunshine, while Scotty and the men grill steaks for a few families that have come over after church. I'm inside with the ladies, talking about what each of us learned from the sermon and preparing salad. Ok, maybe it sounds a little dreamy, but this is what we envision as we look out our windows at our property, one block away. Our hearts are filled with the desire to use this gift for God's glory, as a place where friends and neighbors can come and be encouraged, challenged, and prayed for. Building our home is not in the very near future, as we are waiting on the Lord for the funds to do it, but even now we are asking for wisdom to know how to build it, with what architect, and when. We'd like to invite anyone who can get excited about this project to contact us if you'd like to contribute in some way to making this dream a reality, from outright contributions to our SIM personal fund (not tax-deductible) to a no-interest loan, or being part of a work team to come and actually work on our house in the construction phase.

Home Assignment (what used to be called furlough)

We're coming home! Even as I type "home", I realize that we have two homes. It will be mentally and emotionally hard to tear ourselves away from our lives here in La Paz- to realize that we will be missing what God does in our church in the next 6 months and in the lives of our friends. We will be away for Natalie's first birthday, a date that is very important in Bolivian families and a time of great celebration for all who know the child. But, we also long to be with you, to catch up after more than 2½ years away, to know the particulars of what you have experienced in this time and for us to mutually encourage each other. We wanted to share with you our hopes for these 6 months in the states and also let you know of some great needs we have. Flying back in mid-June, we'll spend our summer in Florida with Lisa's family, while taking trips to Minneapolis, to Scotty's family in Tennessee, and a great sweep of the Midwest to visit supporters and churches in a handful of states. In the fall, Scotty will enroll in two classes at Gordon Conwell Theological Seminary in Charlotte, NC to continue working toward a Masters' degree in Christian Thought, while we have some time to live in community with a supporting church there where we spent our first year as a married couple. We'll stick around to celebrate the holidays and plan on returning to La Paz at the beginning of 2010. While in Charlotte, we'll need a vehicle and an empty home or apartment, or a place to rent for our home base. There will probably be a significant list of baby items that will be needed as well, so contact us if you are willing to help in any of these ways. As much of a temptation as it is to worry about these big details working out, we know and constantly experience the rich provision of our Lord, and trust Him.

Praises

Natalie is healthy and right on schedule developmentally. She continues to bring smiles and coos from perfect strangers around the neighborhood- opening doors for us.

Although there is a recession raging in the US and globally, God has greatly and faithfully provided for our needs through our supporters.

Our landlord, Edgar, has been asking Scotty more and more questions about God and the Bible.

Prayer Requests

We intended to obtain our permanent visas before leaving because we cannot be out of the country for more than 3 months without losing our current status (2 year visas). We've recently found out that is not possible, but will apply for special permission to be away without having to start from scratch upon our return to Bolivia.

That Lisa will be able to balance new challenges and needs of Natalie with ministry time. For Scotty's ongoing desire to prioritize the many responsibilities he has with the church, school and family.

That we will be able to prepare others to fill in our gaps during the 6 months we will be out of the country.

Especially for our church's retreat over Easter weekend as we share the vision for ministry and invite the members to participate more fully.

Thank You
We truly could not be here without you. Your prayer and financial support are our life-line, making it possible for us to live and minister here among Bolivians. We are eager to see you while we are on Home Assignment in a few short months!

Contact Information
Our permanent email address is scottynlisa@gmail.com
Our mailing address is Bolivia: Casilla 3-12052, La Paz, Bolivia, S. America

P.S. Please join our Support Team!
God has graciously provided for all of our needs through your generous support ever since we (separately) hit Bolivian soil in 2003. Now, with a new fiscal year and little Natalie having joined Team Miser, we need to boost our support level with SIM. If you would be interested in joining our support team, please contact us or you can begin giving here!

Day of the baby

This morning we chose to have Natalie's dedication- something we've been wanting to do for a long time, but finally put on the books before she outgrew the dress we wanted to put her in for the event! I have talked to other moms about what it means to dedicate your baby to the Lord and I wanted it to be something more than just a milestone or common occurence. It was special for us to stand before our IBM family in the country of Natty's birth and commit to living godly lives before her, teaching her the Word and of Christ's love for her, and asking the church family to hold us accountable to this. It also meant for me a giving over of her life (not that it was ever in my hands) to the Lord and submit to His plans for her, whatever they may be. This will be a daily discipline for me, as I know times will come and have already come where I don't want to let her go and let the Lord have control. And yet, He loves her so much greater than I can and knows her needs so much better than me. So, Edgar read some scripture on the importance of raising a child in the ways of the Lord, prayed for her, asked a blessing for her life and for ours. He handed us a sweet certificate with her name on it and a children's Bible with a note he had written inside. It was a neat time to be congratulated by our church family with lots of hugs and kisses for us and Natty.

Natty always falls asleep on the 5 min. ride home- she looked so cute half-asleep on my shoulder!

This afternoon, we heard the twins downstairs- the grandkids of our landlords. Two boys who were born three weeks before Natty, who are being watched by their grandparents this weekend while their parents move to a new house. We decided it would be a great time to go down and play with them, also realizing it was a perfect opportunity to spend more time with our neighbors, whom we've felt convicted about reaching out to lately. We had a blast watching the three together, comparing size, eating styles, nap schedules, physical advancements, etc... We will definitely go play more with Edgar and David- cute boys!

Oh, what a night!

So, I love Bolivia and never want to complain about the life that God has called us to here...But, sometimes I wish there were noise ordinances. Take, for exanple, the dude that opened a metal working shop at the end of the street- that clanging is not so bad unless your very tired baby is trying to take a nap, is bleary-eyed and crying, but is having a hard time because of hearing metal against metal like it's outside her bedroom window (oh, right- it is!). Or, the amazing parties that are thrown in the center or town (remember how small our town is) like the one last night where we could hear horns and drums in the distance starting around dinnertime. That wasn't so bad until the party decided to follow the asphalt and see where they ended up- only a loop, of sorts, is paved in Mallasilla. Of course, they end up in a perfect spot to continue their fiesta- on top of the hill at the Catholic church which is directly across from our bedroom window. The ladies were spinning, the men were marching and leading their women onward, the horns were blowing, the drums were thumping- it was oh, so much fun at 11:30pm. Then, just as we had resigned ourselves to living within the party for a few hours and covering our heads with our pillows, we heard some snapping noises and Scotty looked over to see our small transformer on fire. Now, I'm not sure if you've ever smelled an electrical fire...we have somehow managed to blow 3 transformers in the most spectactular ways- with sparks and flames. It's not a good smell. It starts sweet and lures you into believing it won't be that bad. Then it quickly begins to consume the room with acrid, sting-your-throat smoke that is absolutely impossible to withstand. So, around midnight we're throwing open the windows (getting a great view of the parade on the hill- very impressive for a cold, rainy night), grabbing a few things and shutting the smoke into our bedroom. Thank God we have a queen sized guest bed. The guest room becomes home for the night. This was all topped off by the frequent crying episodes that Natalie has engaged in for the last week- I ended up feeding her twice last night, which I haven't done since she was a few months old. I'm not sure if she's going through a growth spurt or I just thought that would be an easy way to get her back to sleep- I know, I caved! Anyway, it's raining this morning, which is a blessing because this rainy season has been dry and they've threatened water rations. Natty is "chatting" in her crib, we have water (which we were told we'd be without for 3 days), and we get to worship with our beautiful Bolivian family this morning at IBM. God is always good.

These are a few of my favorite things

I asked Scotty if he would bake me a cake for my birthday if I were to find a box mix and icing. He agreed and the hunt began for the perfect combo. Growing up, and to this day, my favorite cake (and probably dessert) is a yellow cake mix with chocolate frosting. I'm pretty sure my mom made it for me every year. So, this was my goal for this year. If I were more organized, I would have picked up these items when I saw them in the store and put them away for this special occasion. But, I'm not. So, I started to look a couple days ago and it seemed that all the stores were getting was funfetti cakes and lemon icing-hmmmm, this does not measure up. Third time's a charm, they say. In my third attempt at the Achumani market (known for a variety of good imports), I came across vanilla cake and chocolate buttercream frosting- close enough! I had also picked up an envelope of blueberry muffin mix a few weeks ago and find that it will make a perfect addition to my breakfast/dinner tonight. My favorite birthday dinner was always smoked sausage, mac n cheese, and blueberry muffins (healthy, right?). Well, at least I have the muffin part. I've been wondering who the lucky party was that would share in the cake extravaganza, as it would not be prudent to consume the whole thing myself, as much as I would like to. I've decided, upon much contemplation, that our Saturday small group will be the ones to celebrate with me. They always look forward to the snacks I make for group and it will be a good way to share in my special day, even if it is a day late.

Wednesday nights

I can't resist adding a ridiculously cute picture of Natalie.

Every other Wednesday night Scotty has a men's book study at 8pm. It's a nice excuse to relax and go to bed early. I will be going to bed extra-early tonight, as Natalie kept me on my toes late last night when I should have been visiting Mr. Sandman (does anyone else picture that scene from Back to the Future where "Mr. Sandman" is playing in the background?). Anyway, I love the quietness of Wednesday night. I love knowing my husband is meeting with other men who all want to challenge themselves to live more radically sold-out lives for Christ. I love that my baby has been in bed for an hour and a half and I had a relaxing dinner with my husband. I love that I just had a bowl of vanilla ice cream with chocolate ribbons. I love catching up on friends' blogs. I also usually spend some time before going to bed praying for friends- the sweet, Bolivian women and families in my life, missionary friends, others going through hard times. I am reminded again of how blessed my life is, how amazingly wonderful and adorable my baby is, how grateful I am that God has chosen to shower down goodness on my family. The beginning of my week is usually slow and gradually builds in intensity. This week is no exception. Tomorrow I must run several errands that will take up the majority of Natalie's "awake" time. Friday is my birthday, beginning with SIM team meeting and ending with a "Grease" themed birthday party. One of my good Bolivian friends is also having a scheduled C-section that day- the birth of Natalie's future husband. :) Saturday is Bible study and prep for Sunday. Sunday is church and then an all day church leadership lunch/hang-out time/prayer time at our pastor's house. So, tonight I rest. If I had a bathtub, you know where I'd be.

4 a.m.

Natalie: Waaaaa!

Me: Could this be the 16th time she's cried tonight? (obviously overexaggerating in my tired state)

Natalie: Waaaa!

Me: Scotty? Are you going to go?

Scotty: Should I bring her in here so we can question her?

Me: What?? (Did my husband just suggest that we interrogate our daughter?)

Scotty: Should I just put her paci in?

Me: (Wondering if I awoke him from a dream) Yes.

Thanks for all the encouragement after the last post. The week was full and challenging and I think I cried more when Natalie got her vaccinations than she did. But, God's grace is sufficient and either she is having a better week, or I am accepting that she is going through a more difficult time right now. I think she's teething, poor thing. We're gonna start cereal when we get back from our retreat this weekend, which I'm pretty excited about. Still trying to figure out how I can squeeze one more breastfeeding into the daytime so that maybe she won't need to get up at night. Not too worried about that, as I've found that pushing her to do something she's not ready for is more trouble than it's worth. I love my daughter.

thoughts

I find it hard to blog these days. Not because I have no time, but I can't seem to put two interesting thoughts together... However, I'm home alone tonight, with Scotty leading the men's Bible study and Natty sleeping away in her crib. It's dark and quiet, the cats are fed and happy, it's too early to go to bed (if there is such a thing as too early). I should start our next prayer letter, but I'm not feeling inspired. However, I just walked out of the computer room to make some tea and had this sense of longing to see my little girl. I didn't dare open the bedroom door cause it is poorly constructed and very hard to latch closed without making a considerable amount of noise. So, I just thought about her cute, little, round face and how I miss her smiles. She's had a few tough days= I've had a few tough days. Coming back from Cochabamba last week meant trying to get Natty back into a normal routine. She started waking up several times in the night, crying for us to put her paci back in...this sounds like a sleep association to me. So, I get the hairbrained idea that we should try to introduce new sleep associations (a "lovey", music, finger sucking, etc...) and maybe wean her from the paci at the same time. Well, our baby is still swaddled cause she wreaks all kinds of havoc when her arms are free and she seems to highly dislike the feeling of loose limbs. So, we've had a few full-blown melt-downs while Mom tries to implement these new ideas and a couple shortened naps for other reasons, leading to much crying. I gave our downstairs neighbor a ride into town today and he said, "You're little girl is quite a little cry baby, huh?". Well, no...she didn't used to be. Anyway, all this to say that I have been frustrated and sad that she is sad. Scotty prayed for joy tonight at dinner, that Christ would be our joy. Between my baby issues and his overly busy schedule, I think we are leaning toward the not-so-joyful side. It's easy to get distracted by life and forget the One who gives true life, and joy. These challenging circumstances should serve to bring us closer to our Lord, our Father who cares for us and knows our needs. And yet, I pick up Super Baby Food instead of the Bible, and don't move any closer to laying my burdens on Him. I told Scotty I'd start our prayer letter tonight, but I think I'm going to go have some coversation with my good God.

What's not in La Paz

I went to my favorite Cochabamba grocery store with Natty yesterday. If you're curious, here are some things I can't find in La Paz that I bought here:

1. canned green beans (does anyone else think these are super yum?)

2. coconut milk, lite (yes, not "light")

3. Crispix cereal (there is a serious good, but not too sugary cereal shortage in Bolivia)

4. donuts- these are as close as I've come to Krispy Kreme in Bolivia, except heavier (could that be all the grease?)

5. diet Cranberry Canada Dry- this was just a random splurge buy. I'm not much of a soda
drinker, but I think I picked it up just cause it was a novelty.

For some reason, I love purusing the aisles at the grocery store. As long as Natty has a plastic produce bag to play with, she likes it too.

The Land of Possibilities

Ok, so Cochabamba isn't magical or anything (but almost)...but it feels so good to be here for several reasons:

One: It's warm, even in the shade! Natty and I sat out on towels this afternoon and watched the tree branches waving above us, felt the breeze on our faces, and relaxed. Natty stayed up much longer than she ever does, I think just cause it was so fascinating for her to be outside and not have to have a hat on and clothing covering every inch of her body to protect her from the harsh sun. She didn't even have pants on (gasp!). I think she saw her own toes for maybe the 3rd time in her life- and she loved it. I loved it. It was truly a magical moment for us. I wish I had the camera...

Two: Food. Cochabambinos are known for eating, lots, and often. I went out to lunch with a friend and her baby that is 2 days older than Natty. We ate yummy food and Natty actually fell asleep in my lap, which she wouldn't do at home (after crying for a bit though). Maybe I just never give her the opportunity, but I felt like she could handle it here...or maybe I just didn't have another option.

Three: The SIM gueshouse. Special people; always meeting someone new; homemade granola every morning; large, clean bathrooms; wifi; beautiful gardens/lawn; old German shepherd that licks Natty's hands; kitchen staff that remember me from my days as a single, working with youth here.

Four: It's the city where Scotty and I fell in love. Isn't that enough? And it has donuts. And a really nice movie theatre with a food court. OK, those things help too.

So, we're happy here. Relaxing. Eating well. Do I have to leave on Saturday?

Valentine's Day

Yesterday was a full day. I woke up and went into the kitchen as I do every morning- hopefully before Natty wakes us- to eat breakfast and make coffee. On the kitchen table was a cute picture of Scotty and Natalie that said "Happy Valentine's Day" and two gifts. This was a very nice way to start the morning. I had already decided to make waffles and bacon for breakfast, some of Scotty's favorite breakfast foods. I whipped up some batter, dying it blue since pink is not one of his favorite colors, and then went into the bedroom to open my presents with Scotty. One of the gifts was this beautiful batik that we have seen before and both admired. The other was a very cute necklace and earring set. What a great guy! I had drawn a card for him that listed 10 things inside I loved about him. After breakfast (including a bad, waffle-stuck-to-maker incident) I got busy cooking and baking for lunch and other events coming up. I spent most of the morning and early afternoon at that and taking care of Nats. Mid-afternoon, our small group came over and we had a great time discussing holiness and how to attain it without drifting into legalism. And then, the moment we had all been waiting for- the V-day date. This would be our first time leaving Natalie with someone other than family and we were a tad nervous. A wonderful Bolivian family that live in our neighborhood (in the house we met as a church for the first year) were excited to take the baby for the evening. We packed a bag of goodies for her, including all her favorites and things used in her bedtime routine and drove over. We explained in detail how we put her to bed and when and left confident that she would do fine. Then, we set off for one of our favorite restaurants in town, a little Italian place that we had been wanting to return to for a long time. Alas, upon arriving, we found that they are not open on Saturday nights (what??). We also found that little is open on a Saturday night in La Paz. Obviously we hadn't been out for a while. After driving around a bit, we remembered another Italian place we had wanted to try, and it turned out to be scrumptious. We ate and chatted and enjoyed each others company, not worrying for a minute about Natalie. We walked and ate ice cream and got tired and headed back. Carmen explained to us when we arrived to pick up the baby that she had cried for a long time (boo.), but that she was finally asleep. We realized a few key things that Carmen could have done differently to help her fall asleep, and hopefully can implement those next time. She seems no worse off for the trauma and we were thrilled to have a night to ourselves- a freedom we haven't felt for too long.

Ready for church!

Wet!

So, here's Natty hanging out with her friend Santiago, who happens to have just turned one. Natty is 4 1/2 months old. Whoa- she weighs more than this little guy (she's looking particularly chubby in this photo, don't you think?). Santi is the son of our friends and fellow SIM-ers, Javier and Roxanna. He was born 2 months premature, so hasn't quite caught up to those of his age yet- plus, Ro is a tiny lady. It is always fun for me to hear peoples' surprise when they find out I am just breastfeeding and Natalie is so big- apparently, even though this is a breastfeeding culture, women tend to have problems making it work for them. Praise God Natalie is a healthy baby!

So, after little Santi left, I decided to rush off to find a sun hat for Natalie while she still had a few minutes of "awake time". We went down to the gallery of shops under Scotty's office and searched high and low for a sunhat- a necessity here where the sun is 50 times stronger than at sea level (i.e. skin cancer city). I even had a complete stranger approach me in the airport to warn me about Natty's light eyes and how I should avoid having her face windows because even the bright light coming in from them can do serious damage. This Bolivian woman and her sister confirmed that because her eyes had not been guarded as a child, she would eventually wind up blind. Scary! Anyway, the typical outfit of any kid in La Paz includes a sun hat, yet, I could not find one anywhere! We finally found a little shop tucked away that had some cheapy hats that tend to fall down in her eyes, but I bought one anyway. We then moved on to make a quick stop at the office to say hello, but got trapped by the heavy rain that seemed to come almost from out of nowhere. I decided we'd wait it out, even though we were pushing the limits for Natty's nap time. I gave her a little duck to chew on to keep her distracted from her tiredness (chewing on plastic seems to bring peace to her soul), which worked until she let out her sudden scream of "I'm not OK with this anymore, I want to go to sleep". I decided we'd have to make a run for it, even though I was parked pretty far away, and there's no running in Crocs with a baby in the rain. Thankfully, our lawyer was in the office and she volunteered to hold Natty while I got the car and pulled it up to the building. By the time I had dashed through the hail and rain, I was soaked, and our car was completely fogged up, being that our defrost doesn't work. I went about a block before I realized I was driving completely blind and had almost run into several vehicles. I refused to drive Natalie home this way. So, I called Scotty (who can somehow manage a million times better in these situations than me) and he came down and got us around to the front of the building where Natalia was holding a screaming, tired Natty. She fell instantly asleep in her carseat and I calmed down out of my stressed-outness. It's funny how quickly things can change from happy sunny hat shopping to blind driving, someone-else-is-holding-my-screaming-baby, what-do-I-do panic...

Doin' the stuff

Natty's rockin' the tennis shoes for our evening walk.

So, I'm hiding out in the bedroom right now cause the men's Bible study got switched to our house, last minute. It's nice to have an excuse to sit on the bed and look at recipes, download pics and write emails...although I think I'll be sacking out rather soon. As I was hanging clothes up, I realized that Scotty and I are doin' the stuff we love and that God has gifted us to do. While the men started showing up, I was in the kitchen preparing lunch for a Bolivian/Argentine family we've invited over tomorrow. Sipping tea, eating chocolate (someone stop me), chopping veggies, and washing dishes- I'm trying to live out the command to be a keeper of my home. And then Scotty's out in the family room leading men through the Spanish version of John Piper's Don't Waste Your Life- a neat group of guys who really do want to make their lives count for something. These things don't seem huge when I think about missionaries serving in the bush with tribes that have never heard the name of Jesus- but this is what God has called us to, and it is good. Natty is tucked away in her crib (hopefully not to wake for a long time) and we are serving in the ways we were created to serve. It is a gift to do this here in La Paz as a family.

Life

Today has been nice. Natalie hasn't been sleeping so well, which isn't nice, but because I'm a morning person, I can usually shake off a poor nights sleep when I get up in the morning (strong coffee helps too). I took Natty to the grocery store, our favorite place to browse and say "hi" to all the strangers that coo over her. Scotty came home from school stuff around lunch and we enjoyed some time together, deciding to take Natalie out to the valley of the moon in the afternoon. Valley of the moon is a little tourist spot down the road from our house that is basically rock/sand formations that look like the surface of the moon. It's quite unique and a good walk up and down stairs to check it all out. It's only $.50 if you have a Bolivian ID card, so I think I might make it a frequent walk with Natalie since the routine walk around the neighborhood is starting to bore us a bit. It was fun to have that time with Scotty since we are expecting visitors tomorrow and then I leave on Friday for the weekend. I'm really pumped to be going to a ladies retreat in Cochabamba, but somewhat nervous about having Natty all to myself for the weekend for the first time. As I mentioned earlier, she seems to be going through a rough spot with her night sleeping- initially wailing hard for a long time, seemingly in pain. Then, last night, just crying off and on for an hour and half, not in pain. What's going on? You can never pinpoint some issues with babies, but I can pinpoint how it makes me sin. I actually have been known to get angry at her, never lashing out or doing anything to harm her...but waking up angry when I hear those cries. And then, I tend to take it out on Scotty, who can't solve her problems any better than I can. Then, I wake up in the morning to that adorable, smiling face and realize that it wasn't the end of the world and that very soon that little girl is going to be acutely aware of her mommy's atitude problems and react to her own troubles in the same way she sees me doing. Oh, how wonderful and hard it is to be confronted with your own sin as you interact with your child. A friend with a 7 month old just blogged on this same thing- it is good to know I am not the only one dealing with this. But, how I long to put aside my schedule, my sleep, my self and serve my baby in her times of need, with joy that God has given me such a precious gift. I say I love my daughter, but do I live out that love at all times as the Bible teaches us what love is- patient, kind, etc...? So many life lessons God has to teach me through that little girl!

Back online

Well, as much as I enjoy Facebook, it is not what has kept me from blogging. Our internet company, who was doing a trial run with us in this area, finally decided to start charging us, but didn't inform us. So, we assumed for a bit that the internet was down, because sometimes it just goes down unexplainably. Then we actually called and they informed us that they had shut it down cause we hadn't paid. You would wonder how we were supposed to know they were going to start charging us, but you sometimes just stop asking the obvious questions and do what needs to be done. So, it's taken a week or so to get someone out to push the magic buttons that turn it back on- and here we are. Ahhhhh...to have internet again in the house. Having a baby and being homebound a bit is tough when there is no internet to connect you with friends around the world.

Anyway, I'm not sure I can remember all we've been up to in the past few weeks. The big news is that the new constitution passed on Sunday- which means many things, many of which I'm not totally sure of. Check out this article for more info: http://www.cbc.ca/world/story/2009/01/25/bolivia-newconstitution.html. We had the day off for the big vote, as there is to be no vehicle usage or gathering in groups on vote days- so no church. Scotty had plans to go help our neighbors paint their mostly finished home, but they never showed...so, we had a wonderful day to ourselves with Natalie. We took in a fantastic Piper sermon, as well as some devo and prayer time together, a walk, some reading, yummy food, etc... It was truly a rest day. Scotty started teaching Algebra 2 a few days a week at the Christian school as a big favor to the director. We're really hoping it will be a chance to get to know some of the kids and their families, always wanting to give those who don't attend church the opportunity to come to ours. I've spent a fair amount of time helping Natalie get into a good nap routine during the day- she had gotten to the point where she was only sleeping 30 mins at a time, or less. That was tough for me and I think for her too. We're doing better now, but it's a bit tougher to try to plan events around her naps. I have really been working through a lot of issues as I learn to be a wife/mom/missionary. I want to set up a pattern for my baby to thrive in, while being flexible. I want to balance ministry and time with friends- still thinking about the needs of my child to not be out when she needs to be in. I fight my natural introversion that keeps me from picking up the phone and calling women who need to talk when I am home with my baby. I want to know how to support my husband in the many ministry areas he is involved in, while not getting bitter or jealous that he is able to get out more or see more people. I have a long way to go in figuring it all out, and probably will never do it perfectly, but am learning a lot about being obedient and living out to God's glory the different roles He has given me.

Scotty & Lisa's update from Bolivia

Happy New Year from the Misers in Bolivia!

We're posting our newsletter here in the blog in case you couldn't see it in the email format we just sent out or else to encourage you to sign up to get it in your email inbox if you don't already! Hope you enjoy these photos and recent events in our lives…

Christmas Eve

Ericka and Hugo arrived with their 2 sons, Pablo and Jose, at about 4 pm to start the holiday festivities. We put on some Christmas music while Ericka started laying out all the ingredients in the kitchen for picana, a chicken, beef, and lamb soup. Christmas Eve is the time when Bolivian families get together to open presents and eat this traditional meal at midnight. We have started the tradition of sharing this special evening with our good friends, the Ramirez family. While Scotty taught the guys how to play Settlers of Catan, our favorite board game, Natalie and I hung out in the kitchen while Ericka wildly chopped, grated, spiced and boiled in preparation for our feast. Both families would have preferred a non-traditional, earlier meal time, but it was still 8:30 before we sat down to dinner. The picana was wonderful and we were filled by it and the time of devotion we spent after dinner, contemplating why Christ came to earth. This friendship and participation in a Bolivian custom is a true gift to us at Christmastime.

A New Home for the Mamanis

Picture a family of four: Pastor Edgar, wife Becky, 14-year old son Daniel, and one-year old Sami. Now imagine them hanging out in a bedroom, surrounded by boxes of their possessions, with 2 beds to share between the 4 of them. This room is located in the house of Edgar's parents which is also shared by his siblings and their families. This is what the Mamani family has called home for several years. Pastor Edgar has been praying, saving, and seeking financial help so that his family could have a home of their own and some space to raise their 2 boys. Unfortunately, Edgar is the only Christian in his family and is often taken advantage of by his relatives to pay more than his fair share of bills, groceries and other family expenses. Recently, a friend of ours mentioned that her aunt was selling a small home on a decent plot of land. Our colleagues and Scotty and I had the great privilege of contributing to the house fund, having also joined the Mamani family in prayer over the last year that God would supply a new home for them. Along with an interest-free loan that is designated to help national pastors and their own saved income (Becky has been working two jobs as well as taking care of their children!), they were able to purchase this property in December and move in right before Christmas. How great it is to see the smiles on their faces as they share with us the new freedom they feel in owning their own home. And we give thanks with them in recognizing how the Lord does all things well in His perfect timing and will.

Don't Waste Your Next 5 Months

Of course we have set some goals for this New Year, but recognize how different this year will be from many. We are planning on taking our home assignment from June to December of 2009 and so have the unique challenge of considering how to make the best of 5 short months of ministry here in La Paz. Scotty has kick-started the new year by preaching 3 Sundays in a row on "The New Creation in the New Year (2 Cor. 5:17)". For various reasons, he will not be able to continue in the theological course he's been taking for 1½ years, but has the opportunity instead to fill a much needed role as an Algebra 2 teacher at Highlands. This Christian international school located just on the other side of our small neighborhood of Mallasilla is where we have been holding our church services and where we plan to eventually send our children. We have a special relationship with them and see this as a neat way of deepening our interactions as well as opening doors to reach the students and their families, many of whom are not Christians. Scotty has seen a great need among the men of Mallasilla Bible Church for a study that will challenge these fathers and husbands to fulfill the roles God has for them and hold each other accountable to living holy and purposeful lives. He'll be meeting weekly with them to lead a study of John Piper's book Don't Waste Your Life in Spanish, with the aim of finishing before we leave in June. Adding these things to the varied responsibilities he has as a leader of IBM will keep Scotty plenty busy for the next 5 months!

Mama Lisa

My new, constantly evolving role as a mother is one that has been a source of much joy and challenge, continually bringing me before the throne with the desperate need of God's strength and wisdom to permeate my life. Natalie is a beautiful, happy, relaxed baby who instantly wins over all she meets. My hope is to balance this blessed job of taking care of her daily needs with visiting women from church and in the neighborhood, as well as participating in the new, weekly woman's Bible study that is being held nearby. My weekly goal is to have at least one family, couple or individual over for a meal to create and strengthen friendships within the church community. I also hope to help us become more organized in the way we communicate with each of you, doing that more frequently and personally.

Please join our Support Team!

God has graciously provided for all of our needs through your generous support ever since we (separately) hit Bolivian soil in 2003. Now, with a new fiscal year and little Natalie recently joining Team Miser, we need to boost our support level with SIM. If you would be interested in joining our support team, please contact us or you can begin giving here!

We Can't Wait to Visit You This Year!

This past November was the first time we've been home in over 2 years, and the trip was too quick to do much more than briefly see our families and introduce them to Natty. Some might think that 6 months is a long time to be away from ministry in Bolivia (we think so too!), but we see such value in being able to personally connect with our 5 supporting churches and supporters in 14 different states! Scotty will also be able to take a few seminary classes, taking him a few steps further to receiving his masters in Christian Thought from Gordon Conwell in Charlotte. We also have the need to raise more support now that our little daughter has come along. These 6 months will be a special time to travel, visit with you all, see our families, rest, study and ultimately be more prepared to return to Bolivia. Stay tuned to see if you can help meet the various needs we will have when we are in Charlotte and Florida!

Contact Information

Our permanent email address is scottynlisa@gmail.com

Our mailing address in Bolivia: Casilla 3-12052, La Paz, Bolivia, S. America

Our blog: Scotty & Lisa's big fat blog

Our Mission: SIM USA, PO Box 7900, Charlotte, NC 28241

The new creature in the new year

Scotty has been preaching at IBM the last 3 weeks on the new creature in the new year. It's been a great exercise for him to have this challenge to communicate God's word in Spanish as well as a reminder for us personally to not set goals or make resolutions without seeking the Holy Spirit's direction and empowering to carry them out.

I had to take a couple pics of Natty in this adorable outfit that my friend Jana gave me. As I'm figuring out, there are many outfits that are labeled one thing but seem to fit differently that they would lead me to believe. This one says "6 months" but is just fitting her perfectly right now at 3 1/2 months. The skirt won't slide over her chunky thighs for much longer. The first pic shows that no matter what your age, it's not flattering to a lady to take a picture from below her waist...The second one is much cuter.

Natalie isn't sleeping through the night yet and actually seems to be going through a phase of sleeping less than she has been. But, she smiles a lot, is learning to laugh (especially when Daddy tickles her feet with his beard), loves to grab at the toys that hang above her on her play mat, and definitely gets excited when we walk in the room. She is an absolute joy and receives much attention from the neighbors and our church friends- hopefully it won't go to her head.

This and that

It's rainy season. It's holiday-time here in Bolivia, which continues through the end of February, after Carnaval. That means the days are slow and lazy. Scotty and I are enjoying more free time and trying to do more stuff together and with friends. I'm loving it. Natty loves it. Here are a few of my favorite things (key Sound of Music soundtrack):

1. Morning nursing sessions with Scotty sitting next to me in bed drinking coffee. Making Natty laugh afterward.

2. Morning walks around the neighborhood with Scotty and Natty. Stopping in at the local market to say hi to the ladies and buy fruit.

3. Inviting friends over for meals and games.

4. Watching it go from hot and sunny to cool and rainy with big, breathtaking clouds above the mountains...and then back (gotta love rainy season).

5. Cooking new recipes and eating leftovers.

6. Taking walks in town at night to get ice cream and people watch. Walking along the river and in the park with the stroller.

7. Doing devos and praying together in the afternoon.

8. Catching up with old friends.

9. Thinking and talking about how to make the best use of our 6 months in Bolivia this year (the last 6 months we'll be in the states!).

10. Bedtime with Natty- bath (sometimes that involves a lot of crying), PJ's and sitting on the bed to chat and read a story with Mom and Dad- so sweet!

It can be a big challenge during this time to feel like you are doing ministry. The church has all but shut down. School is out for the summer and people travel or do a lot of stuff together as a family. We see an opportunity to do a lot of laid-back "ministering"- just interacting with people in our small group and growing in friendship. The lot of us went out for lunch after church on Sunday...fun times and yummy chicken. We've had a few families over and want to continue to do that. It's strange how things really do get quiet for several months at this time every year. Scotty is preaching for the 3rd time in a row this Sunday- being the only leader left in town right now. But, he's on a roll with a good topic- the new creation in the new year. I think we're making the best of it and I'm thankful to be together more as a family.

Happy New Year!

Starting the new year with a smile.

Holiday fun

Christmas seemed to sneak up on us this year. Probably because we got home on the 11th of Decmeber and then spent the next couple of weeks trying to get everything in order and the house put together after unpacking the loads of stuff we brought back from the states (mostly for Natty!). We also had a Christmas program at church the Sunday before and sadly, the wake and funeral of the grandmother of our good friend Jimena to attend. The neat thing is to see how Natalie really opens up paths into peoples lives. As we walked into the wake (which is basically where all the friends and relatives of the deceased sit around the casket and wait for people to come and grieve with them), there were many people looking very sad with eyes red from crying. But, as soon as Natalie came in the room, the old ladies brightened up and out came the smiles and the hands to hold her. I'm often not asked if a person can hold the baby, she's just taken from my arms and I have to let go. One of the older aunts of our friend took her from me and paraded her around the room, getting everyone smiling and cooing- a nice break from the time of mourning they were going through.

Christmas morning was relaxing. Natalie got up fairly early to eat and then we all sat on the bed to open stockings. I hadn't planned on getting anything for her, since she received so many gifts back home. But, Scotty surprised me by buying this fun, squishy lobster (that's about her size) that we had seen in a store that she just loved. She always lights up when she sees his big claws flailing. We had also decided to keep things simple this year, seeing as though we had bought plenty for ourselves when we were home. We're also hoping to establish customs at Christmastime that keep our children focused on Christ's birth and life and not go overboard with presents. We had a nice walk around the neigborhood after breakfast. Christmas breakfast in my family has always been cinnamon rolls. Well, as a new, often tired mommy, I didn't want to go through the process of trying to make them. So, we happend upon cinnamon roll flavored pop-tarts in the grocery store and sprang for the somewhat expensive imported treat instead. Then it was off to the Hursts for the afternoon and a scrumptious meal with some of our missionary colleagues and friends.

The night before, Christmas Eve, is actually the big holiday here and we have started the tradition (a year ago) of eating picana, a meaty soup, with our good Bolivian friends the Ramirez family. Ericka brought over all the fixins and prepared the soup at our house while Hugo and their 2 sons played Settlers of Catan with Scotty. It was a neat night of sharing, playing, laughing, eating lots, and having a little devotional at the end to remind us of what Christmas is all about. How we love that family!

Things are always very slow around the holidays, but we're hoping to have at least one family over each week from the church to try to get to know people better and share lives. There are many people hurting at this time because of deaths in the family or illness and we remember how Christ came to heal and love the hurting and want to be ministers of this grace too.

$60 treasures

This might be a fairly random post, but I haven't done random for a while... So, normally it is very cheap to live in Bolivia. A bus fare to a city 8 hours away costs $4. A large meal in a high end restaraunt will run you about $7. But, then there are other items that can only be imported from other countries, usually the states, Brazil or Chile, that cost significantly more than you would pay back home. Cars, for example, can be outrageously priced because they all have to be brought in from other countries. Then, if your vehicle is anything other than a Toyota or Nissan, you pay like crazy for replacement parts. Basic houseware items like plastic storage bins, trash cans, rugs, etc... that you could pick up at Wal-Mart (and find a plethora of all in the same place) for cheap, cost more than a month of groceries. We've been searching for a new trashcan for the kitchen for months, not willing to pay the $40 that most places were asking for the same, poorly made, small, plastic can that we had bought the first time, which broke quickly. Today, as we were grocery shopping, a shiny new can presented itself at the end of one of the rows. I think Scotty must have seen a sunbeam shining down on it and heard angels singing. I just saw the price tag of $399 Bolivianos and said, "how can we pay almost $60 for a trash can?!" Scotty presented what seemed to be a rehearsed speech about how perfect this beauty would be in our kitchen and for all time and I realized that we had searched high and low and were destined to pay the price. So, I stuck it in the cart. I've got it pictured here with one of our favorite treasures that we just picked up in the states- a stainless steel french press that cost about the same. We've broken about 4 glass ones in the last year, so we were ready to splurge and this one was actually significantly less money than all the others of the same size that we had found online. Anyway, there you have it...sometimes you have to suck it up and pay more than you know you could find something for at Wal-mart.

Another random event that happened to me as I was driving home yesterday. I found myself following an old, beat-up pick-up truck with 2 cows standing in the bed. Large cows with udders swinging right in my line of sight. The man had tied a rope behind their rumps, as if that would stop them from tumbling out the back if he had to stand on the brakes. It was pretty funny to watch them sway back and forth as he drove over speed bumps and almost loose their footing when he changed lanes too quickly. Then there was the herd of llamas that rounded the corner onto the major road we were taking home this afternoon...

Now that we have a baby, going out on the town is a big event for us. The other night we met up with some of the international school teachers for Mexican food. Natalie had been fussy all day and I was a bit nervous about how she was going to do. As soon as we got there, she became mesmerized by the TV, which was showing awesome '80's videos. She was quiet and content for a while, had some dinner herself, and then sacked out in her carseat. On the way home, I got a hankerin' for ice cream- the kind with chunks in it- which is uncommon here. Thankfully, a new ice cream place opened up this past year that has some mix in options. They are an open air venue with no seating, so we ordered our cream and sat in the car chatting and watching the people walk by. I told Scotty that it was a real treat to do things like that, which never seemed too exciting before, now that we have a baby. I like being able to enjoy more the simple pleasures of life.

New day

Happy baby with color in her cheeks.

I so appreciate the encouraging words and prayers of so many of you regarding my last blog. As I expected, I woke up feeling much more hopeful about the whole situation with Natalie, although I still get a little concerned if she starts to cry without a good reason- that's what she did when she wasn't getting enough oxygen. But, even though her breathing seemed a bit delayed last night, she showed no signs of struggling or lack of air throughout her sleep- and she slept a normal night, which she didn't do on the first night of being in a "new" place during our travels. She has been herself today and has retained almost her normal amount of rosiness and given us lots of smiles. I have to thank God that she has recovered quickly and hasn't needed the oxygen after mid-day yesterday. I'm thankful for all our friends, and even those who don't know us well, bringing our needs before our good Father. I am always reminded when seeing my baby struggling, whether it's with big things or little, that God knows to a so-much-greater degree the hardship of watching His child in pain. I know that He has ordained each of Natalie's days and loves her more than me. I continue to ask for faith and trust, even though I know these things, so that the knowledge will pervade my thoughts and emotions and change the way I view the events of my life.

Fear or Faith

Many of you have commented on how you enjoy my honesty on the blog- my thoughts and struggles as a woman of God, a wife, a mother, a missionary. Well, today has been a rough day and I feel like sharing. We boared the plane late last night to make our overnight return trip to Bolivia. We were excited to be going back to what has become home and reconnect with friends here. Natty did awesome on the trip- sleeping the whole night and having to be woken up to eat. I started to become a little nervous as we neared La Paz, knowing that not only do a lot of adults, but several babies I know have had a really hard time entering into the altitude. We had our friend Tim, who was driving our truck up to get us, have an oxygen tank on hand, just in case. As soon as we unloaded from the plane, Natty started getting quieter and quieter. Then she started whimpering and getting pale. I told Scotty I didn't think she was doing too well. I kept my hand over her chest, wanting to feel the reassuring rise and fall of breathing normally. Too many times I didn't feel the rising that I was hoping for and would call her name and try and get her to respond. By the time we finally asked a police man to let me through customs to head toward the medical room, I was panicking. Natalie was pale, limp, and had blue around her eyes and lips. I was pleading with the Lord and trying to stay calm at the same time. The doctor, or whatever he was, was very nice and immediately pulled out a large mask to hold close to Natalie's nose and she was soon coming back into alertness and regaining color. Again, I held back tears and tried not to think of what could have happened or might happen when we left the airport. We were able to stay until Scotty could find our luggage and get Tim in with our oxygen tank. We decided to head to the clinic where she was born, just to see what they would have us do. They watched her and kept her on oxygen for another 45 mins until her blood/oxygen saturation level was good. They sent us on our way and told us what to watch for and to keep oxygen on her until noon. I can't even tell you the fears that were looming in my heart and mind the whole morning. We were exhausted from not sleeping much on an overnight flight, being affected ourselves by returning into altitude and not just a little stressed by what we just experienced. Although the medic in the airport was nice, I got the overall feeling he wasn't sure how to deal with babies or what level of oxygen to give them. He was trying to send me on my way and I asked if we could stay longer. He then turned down the oxygen and Natty started crying and turning blue again. The people in the hospital are always somewhat helpful, but the equipment looks quite outdated and often doesn't give good readings. I must admit, I have a hard time trusting doctors in this country. So, here I am, a new mom going through a range of emotions. I begin to wonder what would happen if something even more drastic were to occur to Natalie- would she get adequate care? Am I putting my baby in danger by living here? Is this what God wants for us? Can I really raise a family in an enviornment that is so dangerous? Added to this was the news that our good friends just returned on an emergency visit to the states because they found a serious heart problem in their baby- and it could possibly be altitude related! What an overwhelming day it's been...never has transition back to Bolivia been so hard, never have I wanted so badly to get back on the plane and go back to where it's "safe" and where my family is. Although I can't honestly say I'm totally at peace with what's happened, I do see how God is going to really stretch my faith now that we have a baby. I will have to choose whether I'm going to live in fear of what could happen or live in faith, knowing that the Lord is in control, even when hard things happen. I'm still feeling tired and a little overwhelmed and not ready to leap back in to life as we know it. I know I will sleep fitfully tonight, wondering if my little girl is still breathing. But, I also know and trust that God's mercies will be new and fresh in the morning. I hope in that.

Last Day

Well, today is our last full day in the states. Tomorrow we board a plane with more than twice what we came here with, and head back to Bolivia. The time here has been great- very full. We've spent a lot of good time with family, playing games, sharing meals, playing with the baby. It's been neat to see how she has changed even in this little amount of time and cool to share that with the grandparents. She's grown so much and although she has no more of a routine, eats more frequently during the day (I seem to be doing this as well), and generally remains unpredictable from day to day, I feel like God has given me the ability to relax and take each day as it comes and not expect certain things of an infant that she really can't fulfill. It's definitely not worth the stress that I can often conjure from wanting her to fit into a specific mold according to what the baby experts say. I am just thankful she is getting enough rest, enough to eat and is healthy and happy! Plus, I realize we have yet another transition to weather as we return to life in Bolivia and know that will shake things up too.

It's always a little surreal to leave this shiny, sparkly country and return to the impoverished city of El Alto where the airport is located. The initial shock wears off as we wind our way down into the city and eventually stop in the neighborhood where we live, which has its share of nice homes and wealth. And yet, I think we need to be reminded as we return from this place where we have been so abundantly blessed that there are so many more people that have not even the dream of things we take for granted. We were challenged in many ways on this trip, as I expected, with the temptation to want "stuff" just cause it looks cool and we can't buy it back in La Paz. I've struggled with wanting new clothes just so I can look fashionable, even though those fashions will change again next year. It's a mental and spiritual struggle to keep my eyes focused on the eternal things and on how God is using us and will use us in the future- based solely on our faith in Him and not in how nice our things are. We're excited to go back and see our friends, get our baby back into her "normal" surroundings and see what God has prepared for us.

First Date

By the way, Scotty and I met on Thanksgiving, 2003. That was a good day- but I never would have expected all that has come since then!

We had our first date since Natty was born last week. We left her in the capable hands of my parents and set out for a fun night in our favorite local pizza restaraunt, Satchels. On the way we stopped at a used book store and enjoyed a bit of browsing- a rare luxury we don't have in La Paz. Then to Satchels- an eclectic, fun, delicious spot set in a removed area of my hometown. Besides the indoor seating, they've scooped out the insides of an old VW van and installed a couple picnic table style booths and we were lucky enough to find a spot inside! It was a cold night, but the little electric heater set on the floor and lots of twinkly lights made it a cozy spot for our grub. While waiting for our pie, we perused the funky restaraunt store filled with things like old pez dispensers, bacon-style bandaids, fake facial hair, etc... We chatted and relaxed and didn't worry about the baby. It was great! I love my husband. :)

Thankful

Everyday should be a day to give thanks to the Lord for His amazing goodness- in the hard times and the easy times. But, today I think especially of all that I have been blessed with. I'm in the United States being well taken care of by my family. I woke up in a warm bed, next to a godly husband in the house of my in-laws who love us very much. I have a healthy baby who has brought so much joy and sanctification into our lives. I never lack food or anything else that is necessary for a comfortable life. I get to see my parents again before going back to Bolivia. I get to serve God in a foreign country, one that we have come to love and see as one of our many homes. We have wonderful friends of all nationalities waiting to see us again in La Paz. I have been forgiven much and have the hope of spending eternity with my God whose love is better than life. I am blessed and I am thankful.

Home!

We've been back in the US for about a week now and a lot has happened. Natalie did pretty well on her first plane trip, although she was too interested in the lights, people, sounds and movement to sleep very well. We were out of the house at 5am and didn't roll into Orlando until 8pm and she slept less than 2 hours that whole time! That made for a very long trip for me but she slept well that night to make up for it. The days have gone by quickly as we've tried to pack in some shopping, visiting people, and 3 days of wedding activities for my good friend Jennie. I am realizing now what everyone warned me about- it's really different travelling with a newborn! Some days have been better than others, but Natalie has probably had some of her more difficult days while we've been here. Maybe they are harder for me because she lost any sense of schedule that she was working her way into. Some days she'll sleep tons and eat infrequently, other days she'll want to eat every hour and not sleep at all! I'm trying to be flexible and understand that there are many changes, both in her and her surroundings, that are contributing to what is going on. It's so great to be with my parents so that Scotty and I can get out for short spurts to run errands or jog or whatever. We're hoping to have our first baby-free date this week at our favorite local pizza joint.

The first day back, we were enamored with the US. Everything is nice and clean and green (at least in Florida) and so many coveniences! We have been quite spoiled here by our friends and family. But, we continue to think of our beloved Bolivia, our friends there and the church. I know God is going to use this time to really refresh us and get us excited to be back in the place where He has called us to serve. Although we are thrilled to be back for now and enjoy all that America has to offer, our hearts remain in La Paz. But, oh, how I wish Bolivia had a Target...

Mastitis blues

Well, I realized today I hadn't written a blog for quite some time. I realized almost a week ago that I did, in fact, have mastitis- thanks to many knowledgable medical friends and no thanks to doctors here. Anyway, the last few days have been a blur of pumping, warm compresses, massages, frustrated breast feeding, more pumping, crying (me and the baby!), fussiness (Natty had a growth spurt in the middle of my issues, meaning less milk than normal and cranky baby), etc... It has been the toughest week since she was just born. I've done a lot of venting, a lot of question asking, and sadly, a lot of doubting. Everything and anything has caused me to worry, be anxious, stress. The last 2 days, I've spent a lot of time praying, reciting scripture (or at least bits and pieces I remember), and seeking God's hand in all of this. It's still not over and my body is far from back to normal, but I have more peace that God is in control and will move us through this time. We're also in the throes of packing and trying to get everything prepared to be home for a month. We've got 2 more days to wrap it all up! I'm excited to get home and have some more hands to help me with the baby. I'm especially excited to see my friends and be in a wedding! I'm realizing how tiring and full-on this last month and a half has been since Natty came along and know that I need some rest and refreshment. Hopefully, we'll be wise about our time and how we spend it, trying not to do too much. Thankfully, we are in a spot here where we can leave ministry responsibilities in the capable hands of others and we look forward to coming back with new direction and strength to serve.